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am i still your numner one?
am i still make you smile?
am i still be the one in your heart?
am i still the only one in your mind?
am i still look amazing to you?
am i still being the special one?
am i still the one who you loved?

.I.M.I.S.S.Y.O.U.

i'm sorry
i can't control this feeling
i can't stop my tears
they just drop out of my hand

i miss
the way we laughed together
the times we passed together
the smiles i always searched for
the hug that always comfort me
the kiss that made me realized
how big is your love for me
all the happy memories
that we have spent together

i just
want you to be here
hug me tight
sit next to me
smile to me
and loving me
i need you
to calm me down
and wishper in my ears,
"you are not alone"

i dreamed everyday
every night
every single second in my life
to be next to you
to see your face
to touch your hand
to feel your breath
can't i?

why life is unfair?
i can't see you everyday?

i just hope
you can come by
look me in the eyes
and tell me
that you love me

it's so simply
i just miss you
more than you think

5.12.10
p.hilary

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